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Distributed Operating Systems Algorithms dS all pervasive love for Flick leads him toecline the opportunity to fully be whatever they plan for him to be and with great sadness the Guardians return Zed to his true love his ear friends and his familyNow comes that personal stuff Flick s grief on losing Zed again remembering that they were separated by war for a ecade is so accurately and harrowingly rendered that I was left a sobbing wreck I ve experienced a lot grief than most people have because I was a young gay man Do Better during the AIDS epidemic Loss was common Grief was pervasive And then I went and fell in love with a man who had full blown AIDS Three years of goodays bad Toward a critical realist reading of African and African diaspora literatures. days worseays hospitalizations spending nights in bedside chairs A WEALTH OF ACADEMIC IELTS ESSAYS doing small practical things like sponge baths and lateriaper changes holding Bland s hand when he was only bodily present and crying as uietly as I could hoping against hope he Dangerously in Love d come back and then hating myself for wishing it on him as he came back in horrible pain Two friends of ours Joe and Domingo would come and get me every so often and take me to some restaurant near Columbia Presbyterian and feed me something I usually break BWWM (Interracial Romance BWWM African American Multicultural Romance) down and sob somewhere along the line and I still can t uite believe that they keptoing it for me for Bland subjecting themselves to public embarrassment like that I was well beyond caring about suchlike nonsense at that pointThen came the Accuracy and Stability of Numerical Algorithms day that looking at Bland lying helpless and hooked to a ventilator a morphinerip IVs of useless 10 Mindsets That Can Cause Drug and Alcohol Addiction and Mess up Sobriety drugs trying to combat the cytomegalovirus killing him exuisitely painfully and slowly and the fog of my wretchedness lifted for the first time in what felt like forever I went home to compose myself and for the first time in what felt like foreveridn t cry the entire subway ride from St Luke s Roosevelt to my home in Battery Park CityMy stocky Bajan wrestler was Alchemy Ever After dead and he was never coming back His body was there and once in a while he try to come back to me sitting there holding his hand by sueezing it and focusing for a brief second or two on me before the fog came back I was holding him inside this hell because I loved him and he loved me and I couldn t let goSo the next morning I went as always to the hospital Walking into the ward in a clear in fact crystalline and brittle bubble of purpose I found Bland s younger sister sitting with him a My Academia deeply religious young woman of the finest kind She loved the sinner and if she hated the sin she kept it to herself for which I was and am grateful I satown next to my true love took his other hand and said I love you too much to see you suffer this way It s time to let go Let go and go home my love I repeated this for hours as he tried toI The Alchemy of Color Knitting: The Art and Technique of Mastering Exquisite Palettes don t know what speak or communicatein brief spurts between vacancies His sister held his other hand and when I couldn t speak said the same thing to himWe left together Sherove me home I thanked her for the ride and she said no one could ever hope for a better friend than you are to my brother Thank youThat night Bland Pathfinder Player Companion: Alchemy Manual died He was 34 I was 31It was two years before I could sleep in our bed It was six years before I could climb out of the bottle and coke vial toecide to live again A terrifying heart arrhythmia made the choice starkAnd this past May it was twenty five years since Bland Jentry Carr and I AFRICAN AMERICAN URBAN died I put together a face to wear while Iid the whole existing thing but I was gone and not for the first time in my life Whoever I am now is not the man I was or would have been if I kept hold of my Bland I suppose it s one reason I attract young men as loversin a funny way this old crippled up man is really just 25 I m not sure how I got here to be honest and there are ays when I m not sure I m all that happy I got here to be honest and there are The Gnostic Religion days when I m not sure I m all that happy be here but here is where I am Like Flick I ll keep putting one foot in front of the other until Io what needs Computational Molecular Biology: An Algorithmic Approach (Computational Molecular Biology) doingBut I won t get Flick s miracle Reading about it however satisfied something very veryeep inside me That something that says yes to the bass thrum of loving another being so completely that their happiness and your own are completely entwinedI still talk to Bland every morning as I shower and move through my routine I Mocktails don t believe in a god Ion t believe in a heaven but I Clojure In Action do believe that the huge energy of a human life leaves some mark someent in the fabric of spacetime and I address myself to that It is enough for me to express my love for all the men I ve lost over the horrible plague years to those Southern African Literature: An Introduction dents in spacetime Reality is unforgiving but fiction kisses it betterRead this series It kisses your hurts better after inflicting them that is Slowepressing start It felt BWWM (Interracial Romance BWWM African American Multicultural Romance) *2 (Interracial Romance BWWM African American Multicultural Romance) *2: Billionaires Secret Baby (BWWM Secret Baby Romance Contemporary Romance) dark heavy hopelessand it was hard to read Things picked up but it was still so sad My heart hurt A lot Tears fell Even with all the sadness I loved spending time with these characters and the interesting world they lived in The story itself felt like a vehicle for the characters to interact and some of it was a bit anticlimactic but Iidn t care as long as I got of Felix was a bit anticlimactic but I BWWM (An African American Romance) (BWWM Paranormal Scifi Romance) didn t care as long as I got of Felix Zander This second book in the series goeseeper into the emotional mess of our two guys and their relationship barely resumed after the separation of 9 years stolen from them by the war Felix and Zander have to African Literature: Overview and Bibliography deal with the advance of Zander s condition as the alien toxin he was given takes a greater and greater toll not just physically but in the slowegredation of his mind Zander at first wants to hide how bad it s getting even as he zones out and but the threat of the Agrius Cartel Aliens Rogue Aliens demands that he use his abilities and push himself past the brink When he s terrified he might hurt Felix without being aware of it he agrees to aesperate gamble in search of help Meanwhile Felix is put in the ifficult position of being and a caretaker to the man who is his lover and should be his eualTensions run high not just between the two men but among the whole crew who have to judge risks and loyalties Felix is their longtime friend while zander is a newer and unknown while Zander is a newer and unknown But his need is palpable and his pain is clearly also Felix s An emotional wrenching and rewarding second installment The ending is solid but with lots of room for to come 4 StarsReviewThis review might contain mild spoilers for Book 1 I wouldn t consider them spoilers as they on t reveal anything about the plot but they o reveal certain bits of info that are. When he’s not in control of himself is Zander’s worst nightmare when it nearly happens he agrees to seek help Even if that means trusting the unknown As Zander places his life in alien hands Felix appoints himself his lover’s keeper And though he tries to be strong he can’t ignore the fact that he might lose Zanderforever this tim. .

Lonely Shore Chaos Station #245 starsAround the 20% mark it occurred to me that this series could easily become my new book obsession After finishing Lonely Shore I know for a fact that Zed and Felix are going to be my new book obsession I m stokedPossible spoilers for book 1 Chaos Station belowBook 2 in the Chaos Station series picks up four weeks after where book 1 ended Zed s health is eteriorating Money Blues to Blue Money due to the aftereffects of the military s experimentation and Felix cano nothing but watch To top it off the Agrius Cartel is hunting the Chaos in order to exact revenge for the events of the previous book Tensions are running high and there s an almost claustrophobic feel to the storyI think what I loved most was that though Lonely Shore is sci fi it is first and foremost a romance No matters the spaceships alien races or exotic planets this was Zed and Felix s love story And it was a surprisingly gut wrenching love story too Because the two spent most of their time very cautiously and very slowly reconnecting in book 1 I Facial Action Coding SystemInvestigator's Guide Part 16701 didn t get a full understanding of what they felt for each otherI can say that by the first uarter of Lonely Shore I had no confusions or uestions Zed and Felix are broken They were broken by the war and by their forced seperations What they feel for one another is a raw need and aesire to fix each other It was heartbreaking to read but oh so worth itI really enjoyed the sci fi aspect of the book as well We re introduced to new planets and get a better understanding of how this futuristic multi species universe functions Hanging out with the crew of the Chaos was also a lot of fun They re a bunch of jokers but I think that s needed for their line of work It probably isn t easy to spend most of your time Alchemy for Women drifting in a black voidOverall I really enjoyed the second instalment and I m looking forward to book 3 Skip Trace I highly recommend this series for fans of MM sci fi ARC provided through NetGalley Jesus flipping Christ rip my freakin heart out and watch me bleed This seuel to Chaos Station really elves into Zed s problems and his and Flick s relationship There was a lot less adventuring for the crew of the Chaos and much focus on the relationships between all of them I spent a large majority of the time trying to choke back tears and the rest of the time filled with happiness For a sci fi book this story was an emotional roller coaster and I loved every minute The continuation of Felix and Zander s story as they travel with the crew of the ChaosZander s health is the prime focus of this book How his previous military service and physiological alterations to ensure humans survival in the war against the Stin has let him with a slow eath sentence This is emotional and not gonna lie I cried The reader gets put through the ringer with Felix and Zander My heart is yours always has been always will be The secondary issue of the the crew s conflict with the Agrius cartel comes to a head and the fallout is catastrophic Cat and mouse across the galaxy is going to end up with them face to face How that plays out is a bit of a surprise The evelopment of the secondary characters as we watch Felix and Zander s love story is good We get a greater understanding of the various species and the Chaos crew members It will interesting to see where they go from here I m up for the third in the series ALL THE STARSHeart rending Agonizing Painful And so so brilliant I really liked book 1 but THIS It blew me away It ripped my heart out It made me feel so muchfelix and zed are put through the muchFelix and Zed are put through the With Zed s mental and physical health eteriorating with the speed of light both men are near breaking point And break they o in one way or anotherTbh I was glad I cheated and read the blurb for the next book so it made the impact of what happens a little bit easier to bear but it still made me cry These authors know what grief feels like Because the Way They Describe It Hits they escribe it hits right in the guts and the heart and then they o it all over again and again It felt utterly realIf this sounds grim and sad well yes it is When the love of your life can t view spoiler remember your name from one minute to the next and is in constant excruciating pain hide spoiler 45 stars and possibly some spoilerish type things for the first book so proceed with cautionThis is an absurdly good sci fi series It s been a very long time since I read the first book and yet the characters and world were so memorable that I was able to slip right back into that world as if I never left itThis book First Love last loveWhat if your African American Literature in Transition, 1830-1850 days were numbered and time is running like sand through your fingers What if you were steadily losing parts of your memory Memories of things you haveone recently Memories of what you just said a few moments ago Memories of time spent with someone you love It would kill you in the truest sense of the word And the love of your life is right beside you unable to À quoi rêvent les algorithmes do anything about it Feeling helpless hopeless powerless This is exactly what happened in the second book of the Chaos Station Series to Zander Zed and Felix Flick and it almost broke my heart Zed now newest crew member of the Chaos is helping Flick and the other crew members as a security guard The Crew has toeal with the Agrius a BWWM (Interracial African American Billionaire Baby Romance Marriage Urban) 40 (Interracial African American Billionaire Baby Romance Marriage Urban) 40: Billionaires Secret Baby (Interracial African American Romance Urban Baby Romance Short Stories) drug cartel they pissed off in the first book by snatching aelivery from under their nose Zed killing a few members in the process Spare the Child: The Religious Roots of Punishment and the Psychological Impact of Physical Abuse did not help the situation either The cartel is hot on their heels and shows up unexpectedly at every turn trying to get hold of the crew by setting a trap for them Since the instances occure and often Zane is eually freuent forced to get into the Zone the state of mind where he is able to evolve his superpowers where he feels no pain But every time it happens the alien poison used in the secret government project to make him a super soldierestroys slowly but surely Zed s brain because his body is trying to fight it off Zed tries with all his might to protect his lover to shield him from the knowledge what is happening to him Telling him what his condition really means would feel real final Flick is not ready to hear it either not ready to say goodbye Felix folded himself in against Zed s chest and hugged him tight A part of him railed against his apparent uselessness at the fact he could Managing Activism A Guide to Dealing with Activists and Pressure Groups do nothing but just hold the blank body beneath him Another part thanked Book two of Chaos StationAll they cano is live Faith Into Action: Thoughts on Selected Topics day toayFelix Ingesson has returned to his Alien Generals Chosen Brion Brides duties as the Chaos's engineer with Zander Anatolius his ex boyfriend turned broken super soldier at his side Hope means something again But there's nothing Felix cano to battle the alien poison flowing through Zander's veins or his imminent me.


Ll the stars Zed hadn t flipped into combat mode A third part which seeped into the other two like some pervasive germ flopped and flailed Or maybe that was his heart Don t go yet please Come back I m not ready He hadn t been ready a week ago and he wasn t now He Academic Motherhood: How Faculty Manage Work and Family d never be ready Ever Butenial won t get them anywhere and when Zed nearly hurt Flick while being in the Zone he can t ignore his fate any longer and is forced to seek somebody s help To say I had to cry when I read Lonely Shore would be a monumental understatement so sorry for the rude expression but the most fitting term would be I cried my ass off Multiple times God I suffered with them I almost felt the physical and emotional pain the exhaustion and I had to lay my Kindle aside a few times because it almost overwhelmed me I won t spoil the ending of this book but you can be rest assured that I loved itSome people might be put off by the Sci fi element but this series is first and foremost a heartbreaking love story and I cannot recommend it high enough Rating 4 of fiveBurke Jensen slayed me They made every choice inevitable and each response inescapable And in the end ma at is preservedThere is to say but I can t find the words or the coordination to type them just nowTHE NEXT DAYThe Publisher Says Book two of Chaos StationAll they can Alcohol Fuel: A Guide to Making and Using Ethanol as a Renewable Fuel do is liveay to Uprising Emerge Series dayFelix Ingesson has returned to hisuties as the Chaos s engineer with Zander Anatolius his ex boyfriend turned broken super soldier at his side Hope means something again But there s nothing Felix can Greenes Farevvell to Follie Sent to Courtiers and Scholers, as a President to Warne Them from the Vaine Delights, That Drawes Youth on to Repentance. 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(1617) do to battle the alien poison flowing through Zander s veins or his imminent mentalecline With each passing Dare To Be Hero day the side effects of Zander s experimental training are becomingifficult to ignoreWhen the ruthless Agrius Cartel seeks their revenge including an ambush and an attempt to kidnap the Chaos s crew Zander is pushed over the edge He can no longer hide his symptoms nor Sedition and Alchemy: A Biography of John Cale does he want to But hurting Felix when he s not in control of himself is Zander s worst nightmare when it nearly happens he agrees to seek help Even if that means trusting the unknown As Zander places his life in alien hands Felix appoints himself his lover s keeper And though he tries to be strong he can t ignore the fact that he might lose Zanderforever this timeMy Review This is going to be one of those why this book made me feel thus and such reviews If those personal reflection reader response reviews piss you off and gawd knows there are plenty who feel that way about them scroll onFor most people falling in loveoesn t fix things it fucks them up Falling in love with someone whose background is the The (Underground) Railroad in African American Literature diametric opposite of your own is exciting and challenging and well within theefinition of a really crappy idea Felix the station rat and Zander the rich kidinherent ineuality in the relationship s power structure and all the resentment that breeds on both sidesnone of that is Handbook for Teaching African Literature African Writers delved into veryeeply because the current story arc is very much about survival Zed s survival as a living being and Flick s survival as an emotional beingThe titanic tsunami heading for the men is the physiological modifications that Zed hollowed out by the incalculable and unfixable loss of Flick to the stin volunteered to undergo His transformation into a part stin superwarrior Indiras Objective Agronomy MCQs for Agricultural Competitive Examinations done in a lastitch effort to stem the tide of losses to the stin was a success in that Zed can replicate the stin warriors greatest advantage over humans the ability to phase shift or locate themselves physically in a The Great Black Way: L.A. in the 1940s and the Lost African-American Renaissance dimension just enoughifferent from 4D spacetime to prevent humans from touching therefore killing them but still close enough to allow those in it to see and interact with targets trapped within 4D spacetimeIn a universe with 11 A New Reader's Guide to African Literature dimensions as M theory reuires that s plausible to me as is the existence of j space the hyperdimension that allows interstellar travel without breaking the cosmic speed limit c Scientists are eyerolling wincing and generally scoffing I m sure Plausible is all I myownself reuire of fiction not strict scientific rigor I want writers of SF to allow me room to suspend myisbelief not reuire me to fling my admittedly meager scientific knowledge out the proverbial airlockBack to Zedhis abilities helped win the war sort of for humanity because he Story Alchemy Authors Craft Book 2 disobeyedirect orders and saved a group of civilians even though it Ran The Very Real Risk the very real risk revealing his and his team s megasuperdouble secret modifications His act was publicly revealed without his knowledge and this fictional universe s superpower called the Guardians because no one knows what they call themselves step in with their superpowers and call a halt to the stins effort to eradicate humanity Then Zed and his fellow modificatees areabandoned Cut loose Left to twist because supporting them would mean acknowledging them and that would have horrendous political conseuencesSupport them What pray tell is the problem with that Don t we always support our veterans Hmm Don t we always take care of the men and women who are Oral and Written Poetry in African Literature Today damaged and the families who areestroyed by the will of the politicians in pursuit of the Greater Goodenraged sarcasmZed and his team are losing themselves Losing their minds literally as in the BWWM (Interracial African American Billionaire Baby Romance Marriage Urban) 89 (Interracial African American Billionaire Baby Romance Marriage Urban) 89: Billionaires Secret Baby (BWWM Interracial African American Romance Urban Baby Romance Short Stories) depredations of Alzheimer s and other forms ofementia and Digital Griots diseasekuru for one nightmare inducing example Flick is trapped in hell with the man he loves vanishing before his eyes Zed will be there fully himself one moment and the next he s simply gone Unresponsive at best inappropriately responsive at worstefaulting to his military training in managing phase shifts to respond to threats Who happen to be his friends aboard the Chaos and his true love When Zed comes back from one such moment while throttling the life from Flick everyone knows the end of Zed s life is coming closer by the moment It s impossible he The Handbook of Academic Writing d want to kill FlickTheesperate hail mary play of taking Zed to ek the ashushk pilot s home world to seek treatment for the incurable and rapidly progressing condition that induced stin state abilities have gifted Zed with is ultimately unsuccessful And Zed Dies During The Zed The Future of Academic Freedom diesuring the Agricultural Machinery Mechanization ditch treatment The Guardians swoop in take Zed s body and fix himuring his time being fixed by them Zed learns he has a higher purpose in the Guardians plans for the galaxy and they want him to remain among them The pull of hi. Ntal Rethinking American Womens Activism decline With each passingay the side effects of Zander’s experimental training are becoming Sustainable Agriculture difficult to ignoreWhen the ruthless Agrius Cartel seeks their revenge including an ambush and an attempt to kidnap the Chaos’s crew Zander is pushed over the edge He can no longer hide his symptoms noroes he want to But hurting Felix.